I can’t remember the last time I sat down and used writing as a means of relief. I feel like these past years at college have taken every ounce of liberation and confidence I once felt and have completely demolished them, and then some. I don’t even know why, I have some clues, but as for right now I’m going to keep them to myself. It’s weird feeling like I’m in the 9th grade when I’m really going to be starting my junior year in a month and half. Especially, since I’ve seen so many of my friends excel with the liberations of college while I’m barely holding on.
Don’t get me wrong, there have been some wonderful new realizations and experiences that I’ve gained, and I absolutely love them, but there are a lot of things I’d like to work on adding back into my life that I hadn’t even noticed I'd lost until I glimpsed them for a couple months while living in Ecuador. I felt so free and light-hearted, and I know I would have to be an idiot to let characteristics that were so engraved in personality for 18 years slip back into hibernation because I’m not always comfortable in my surroundings or comfortable having to show all these new people I’ve met at school some different sides of me that they haven't yet experienced.
i'll grow up one day, i swear. but i'm only one year over the "teen" limit so let me bask in my 20th year and all the impossibilties of my immaturity until i finally learn to grow up and feel comfortable in my own skin again.



cancion: obsesion por aventura

p.s. aventura, marc anthony, y alejandro fernandez are playing a one time show at Madison Square Garden on the 21st of August...if anyone's interested let me know, because i really realy really really REALLY want to go and i need a buddy :)